Monday, September 21, 2009

I'm back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is where I was a year ago. I had just visited Mallow Run Winery for the ARPO fundraiser. By the way, it is October 24th.

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“Have you taken the time for you lately and found something to do that truly is something you love? I can’t say I love going to wineries, but it may be on my list of fun things to do. What I learned, is that others see that I have been giving my time to the animals and not myself. And you know what, they are right. I am still going to be giving my time to the animals, one 5 week old rescued kitten at my house and getting a foster dog tomorrow evening, plus the Indy Feral cat outside and the other neighborhood cats I am trying to get into Indy Feral, and my kitties. But what I realized is that I HAVE to make time for myself. I can’t afford to go out and do a whole lot of stuff, as is the case with many of us these days. But, I can go out and do things. Some ideas include, free times at museums, going to parks for a walk with a friend or by myself, $5 Buck Club movies at Kerasotes theaters, sitting in Border’s reading, playing outside with the neighborhood kiddos, picnic with friends, apple picking at an orchard (I highly recommend Tuttle’s). With Autumn here, I believe I may be going to a park, at least once. I have visions of taking pen and paper and working on a novel I started a year or so ago! The key is to get out and enjoy life. What I discovered is that I have to make myself a priority and that is not selfish. My health and my happiness, and dare I say, my commitment to Weight Watchers depends on it.”

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Wow, what a difference a year makes. Unfortunately, I have gained all my weight back. I don’t want to admit that as I know I inspired people to lose weight in my days of Weight Watchers employment. This has been a hard emotional battle for me and I am sure that only fed the scale. I have had a hard year but I am very much approaching the other side. I have had major feet problems and had surgery on the first one in August. 6 weeks of non weight-bearing and one month in a boot. I am graduating to the boot in one week exactly. But I’m not counting the days. When your feet hurt, you don’t want to walk. When you don’t walk (or run), your metabolism slows down. When you have pain, you want to feed it. When you feed a body with slow metabolism and no exercise to burn any of it off, you gain weight. And you get to the point where you just don’t care. Hence, I have gained my weight back.

I am now following Core (Simply Filling) and I am weighing at home right now. I hope to return to meetings. I admit, I may always do Core and refer to SF as Core. I am finding that I am wheat intolerant, maybe gluten intolerant. And the best part, I’m not nearly as hungry nor need to munch like I thought I would! And a veggie Core life isn’t too expensive.

I know I have lost weight the last couple weeks, although I just figured out how to get on the scale this weekend while on crutches. It will be much easier when I can step on the scale from a standing position. I am sure I could have figured this out sooner, I just wasn't ready.

I finally got so fed up with where I was and was headed that I am taking the much needed actions for myself. I will even be walking the canal soon after work. Might as well, it’s right by my office.

I miss you all and hope you are well.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Funny McDonald's experience - a friend shared this and I had to as well!

My son wanted a kiddie cup from Mcdonalds today. I agreed and when I asked for sprinkles, (I know not healthy but once in a while is ok), I was told by the cashier that Mcdonalds has decided that sprinkles are not healthy and do not fit in with their menu options. I said almost laughing "Uh, nothing here is healthy!" She agreed but they were told in a meeting that sprinkles are out! The only thing I can think of is they probably have hydrogenated oils in them but don't the fries have them also??? I think our Mcdonalds days are over and I'll make homeade ice cream with the kids. They love to help and eat the results!!

From a WW message board member

Thursday, April 23, 2009

The Reflection: Fact or Fiction?

I am wearing a springy skirt today, lots of flowers, flowy, and bright. It is finally starting to get warm. My mind isn’t as springy as my outfit and the weather. I am not happy in this outfit and am very self-conscious. I have had numerous comments on my skirt, all good. I was even told it looks like I am losing weight.

I passed a window on the way into the office and thought, “ICK!” I felt and looked so fat. I came into work, got settled, and when visiting the ladies room I saw myself in the full length wall mirror. Huh? I was perplexed. I looked nothing like what I saw just an hour before. I almost looked thin.

So, which reflection is right? Or are either? If I don’t feel it in my head and heart, will either ever be real?

When I was at goal and leading WW meetings, I was shocked by window reflections, but in a positive way. I always thought I looked so thin. Now that I am still trying to lose weight, again, the window seems to be a lie. How is it that it could be so distorted? And if the mirror is making me feel good, then why do I feel bad looking at myself in a window?

Why am I letting this distortion bother me?

I feel better now in my skin than I did this morning. All I can ask is to not let my mood and happiness be determined by a distortion and work to feel better from one moment to the next.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Hello everyone! I started a new blog and I am maintaining it more these days than this one.

QuirkyVegan on blogspot

4 weigh-ins down and down 4.5 pounds! 3rd week of being vegan and I am loving it! My need to eat is reducing and I am going hours between eating and am fine! I am eating so well these days!

Eyebrow wax tomorrow and then yoga. Doing some flower transplanting inbetween. Work Saturday and then dinner out with friends at the veggie/vegan new Indian buffet in town. Passage to India. It is awesome!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, day of rest and cooking for next week!