Monday, September 21, 2009

I'm back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is where I was a year ago. I had just visited Mallow Run Winery for the ARPO fundraiser. By the way, it is October 24th.

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“Have you taken the time for you lately and found something to do that truly is something you love? I can’t say I love going to wineries, but it may be on my list of fun things to do. What I learned, is that others see that I have been giving my time to the animals and not myself. And you know what, they are right. I am still going to be giving my time to the animals, one 5 week old rescued kitten at my house and getting a foster dog tomorrow evening, plus the Indy Feral cat outside and the other neighborhood cats I am trying to get into Indy Feral, and my kitties. But what I realized is that I HAVE to make time for myself. I can’t afford to go out and do a whole lot of stuff, as is the case with many of us these days. But, I can go out and do things. Some ideas include, free times at museums, going to parks for a walk with a friend or by myself, $5 Buck Club movies at Kerasotes theaters, sitting in Border’s reading, playing outside with the neighborhood kiddos, picnic with friends, apple picking at an orchard (I highly recommend Tuttle’s). With Autumn here, I believe I may be going to a park, at least once. I have visions of taking pen and paper and working on a novel I started a year or so ago! The key is to get out and enjoy life. What I discovered is that I have to make myself a priority and that is not selfish. My health and my happiness, and dare I say, my commitment to Weight Watchers depends on it.”

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Wow, what a difference a year makes. Unfortunately, I have gained all my weight back. I don’t want to admit that as I know I inspired people to lose weight in my days of Weight Watchers employment. This has been a hard emotional battle for me and I am sure that only fed the scale. I have had a hard year but I am very much approaching the other side. I have had major feet problems and had surgery on the first one in August. 6 weeks of non weight-bearing and one month in a boot. I am graduating to the boot in one week exactly. But I’m not counting the days. When your feet hurt, you don’t want to walk. When you don’t walk (or run), your metabolism slows down. When you have pain, you want to feed it. When you feed a body with slow metabolism and no exercise to burn any of it off, you gain weight. And you get to the point where you just don’t care. Hence, I have gained my weight back.

I am now following Core (Simply Filling) and I am weighing at home right now. I hope to return to meetings. I admit, I may always do Core and refer to SF as Core. I am finding that I am wheat intolerant, maybe gluten intolerant. And the best part, I’m not nearly as hungry nor need to munch like I thought I would! And a veggie Core life isn’t too expensive.

I know I have lost weight the last couple weeks, although I just figured out how to get on the scale this weekend while on crutches. It will be much easier when I can step on the scale from a standing position. I am sure I could have figured this out sooner, I just wasn't ready.

I finally got so fed up with where I was and was headed that I am taking the much needed actions for myself. I will even be walking the canal soon after work. Might as well, it’s right by my office.

I miss you all and hope you are well.